Hey guys- it’s been a while *cue Britney Spears in the background*
KIDDING I’m actually a kid. So today’s little blurb is an update to where I’ve been these past few weeks. So I made it a goal in the new year that I would keep with my consistency and though I’ve slacked I’m holding myself 100% accountable for all of my absences from here on out.
It’s been about 3 weeks since I’ve uploaded a video on my channel and here’s why. I just haven’t had my mojo in a while. I haven’t been motivated to post makeup tutorials, I haven’t even had any sort of desire to even put on a full face of makeup. The “makeup community” on youtube right now is honestly just so FILLED with fake, nasty people it has completely discouraged me from wanting to post creative content. I found myself ignoring it for a long while, and at this point I’m just sick of watching the same content over and over and over again. I support the people I enjoy watching, but frankly I’m at a plateau in my makeup career right now.
There’s such a pressure to constantly have the newest and greatest thing, and always being on trend with different styles and looks and everything. And to be quite honest, being in university, needing to support myself completely, and justifying spending hundreds a month on makeup just isn’t at the top of my priority list right now. I’m not saying I’m stopping makeup posts, but for now I’m putting them on Pause.
It’s been said THOUSANDS of times before, that your environment is SO important. You need to surround yourself with people with the same goals as you, the same mindset and in a makeup community where people (wish I was kidding) will spaz at you claiming you’re an attention seeker for asking for tech help is just not what I want to be a part of. Within the past 3 months, I’ve come across lifestyle vloggers with the same following as some big youtubers I know, that have answered my tweets, snapchats, etc etc and have just been so GENUINE.
If you have been following along with my Instagram (which if you haven’t, you really should) you may have noticed that I have been back in the fitness game. I train 4-5 times a week, and I truly have never felt better. I changed up what I eat, I eat enough and I feel AMAZING. So these past few weeks have also consisted of constant debates of whether I should turn my channel in a slightly different direction.
I just found that I hadn’t been going anywhere being a makeup youtuber. It’s almost like I would constantly attempt to cookie-cutter myself into something I completely was not and I was constantly frustrated about it. Though my personality is in all of my videos (swearing and all lol) I just didn’t feel right. I want to be able to showcase all of my passions on my youtube channel and my blog- and I’m totally content following in Laiba Raid’s shoes and be a fitness makeup youtuber. It’s cool. I’m about it.
So, now here we are- and I introduce to you a slightly different chapter of me. Something that I find so interesting every single day. So if you’re interested in following me on this fitness journey, I’m glad you’re going to be with me on this! And on the contrary, if fitness isn’t your thing, I wanted to thank you for supporting me up until this point. Regardless, I’m super pumped to share new content with you guys.
Let’s kill the rest of the year. I love you always,
Mariah
Mariah Alexandra 